My sex drive has returned! I know, TMI but honestly, I was getting scared. For the last couple of weeks I had absolutely no desire to be sexual whatsoever. When the thought of sex had even crossed my mind, I felt uninterested and repulsed at the same time. I've never felt that way. I was thinking maybe it's like the whole "use it or lose it" deal, and since I hadn't been using it, I thought maybe it had disappeared for good. I told one of my friends about how I was feeling and she said that perhaps it was my age. Hmmm. IDK. It could have been a lot of things. I know I'm a super-busy single mom and at the end of the day, I'm tired as hell. But I don't think I'd ever too tired to have sex. Not having a libido for a couple of weeks made life seem much easier. It was like I had one last thing to worry about. And pl
us, I'm not having sex, so what would I need my sex drive for? ***Sidenote*** A month ago, I ran into an old friend that I hadn't seen in a long time. We talk occasionally and he's told me that he's looking for that special someone. He's made it perfectly clear that he's willing to give me "the business" but I'm not wanting to take it there with him. Sex complicates things and I prefer his friendship over his sex. Plus, he's not ready...
My mom surprised me by taking me to lunch today. On our way back to my job, I saw a nice looking brother getting out of his car down town. As he started walking toward some building I couldn't help but notice that he was looking oh so good. As I kept staring, our eyes met and I instantly recognize him. "Avery," a guy from my past. Brought back a lot of good memories. Made me want to keep on staring. My mom asked me, "Do you know him?" "Yeah," I answered dreamily. I wrestled with my new found libido as I thought about Avery and wished I hadn't deleted his phone number from my cell phone many, many months ago. But I deleted it for a reason. Like my other friend he just wasn't ready....
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Sex is just one of those things that is really complicated, but shouldn't be. The thing I seem to get from you is you want the total package. Tired of the sexed up escapades that don't lead to longevity, so what's the point of adding another notch to the headboard?!
It's funny because I can be very sexual, but I don't wanna be someone's jumpoff, nor do I want a jump off in my life. I'm in that "all or nothing" frame of mind. But every now and then, I do get the urge, but I just push it out of my mind 'cause what's the point! *sigh*
I believe it was New Year's Eve when I broke my 7 month non-voluntarily celibacy period. My drive never left but I think I got so discouraged because I struggle with adding numbers to my list vs. pleasure..lol
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@ Tosha...Yep u are really feelin me on this one. Don't wanna waste my time/emotions/body with someone who I don't see a future with. I do want the total package. I want someone who's more balanced and just doesn't want (or want me) to be a sexual toy.
@ ABG...Yeah it's funny how you say that you want don't wanna "add to your list" and I feel the same way. I think a lot of females do. But you know, I don't ever hear men saying that. It's like the more conquests, the better...fuggin double standards...
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